Friday, April 18, 2014

Happy Birthday, Sergio!


Today is my son Sergio’s birthday, he would have been 28 today.   He was a dreamer and he could have been a husband and father.  He could have been an artist, singer or carpenter; he could have been anything he wanted to be.  I miss him.  I miss his smile, his laugh, his insight.  I am ever grateful that the Lord allowed me to have this young man in my life.  He was only 5 years old when he was placed with us for adoption.  It was difficult and sometimes I felt regret that I had taken him into our home, but regret soon became concern for his wellbeing.  Then concern became love, love for a child who had gone through so much hurt in his short little life.  It wasn’t easy raising Sergio, we had many moments, but I knew he was worth the fight.  We took our chances when we were told that our son could possibly suffer from schizophrenia, we hung on to hope that he wouldn’t, but he did.

Sergio was 23 years old when he took his life.  He was caged in his own torment and caged by others who I trusted were providing him with the best medical care possible.  I still feel the sting of the call that we received the day we were told he was dead, it was a callous call.  I had to forgive the heartless people that had surrounded my son, but there were also wonderful stories of Sergio.  Sergio never hesitated to share the gospel with others who suffered in the same facility he was in.  He served those who could not serve themselves, he prayed for those who had no hope.  As a mother it was a great comfort to hear how others loved him very much.  I miss my son, Sergio, but  I know without a doubt that he is with the Lord.  I still grieve him, I miss him very much.  I remember not too longer after his death I was angry that the Lord would allow my son to go through such hurt, but I was reminded by a loving friend who said to me, “satan may have had your son’s mind, but God had his heart.”   If ever words were spoken in truth it was those very words. 

So, mijo. I want to wish you a  Happy Birthday!!  I know your celebration is awesome with the Lord.  Father, could you please give Sergio a big hug and big kiss from me and could you please tell him that “I love and miss him very much.”
 
 
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