On Second thought . . . .

It is the first day of Autumn.  How could I think I could not share how this time of year makes me feel.  It is a refreshing time of discovery and life.  I had signed out of my blog, thinking that I could just close my blog.  There is so much I want to share, whether, it is important to you or not.  Who cares.  It is important to me. 

So much has happened since I felt I needed to ditch this blog.  A lot of interesting and not so interesting things, but I will share.  I started dating again.  I met a gentleman.  He is kind, but we are in the beginning stages of dating.  He is kind and smart, and very cute.  When we get together we have fun and I do enjoy his company. 

I will have some medical things taken care of, I will post more details on that in the near future.  I believe that I am slowly coming out of my grieving for my ex.  And for those who feel that I should just let it go, well, no.  It is a process and I do feel better.  I am healing, and I hope I never forget that there was someone who impacted my life.  Good or bad, Cal was once my husband. But, most importantly, he is my brother in Christ.

Well, I am living my life the best I can.  I attended my first Rockies game yesterday in Denver.  My date drove me through the city of Denver.  He took me to places I have never seen and it was great!  So much change in that city.  I enjoyed myself immensely at the Rockies game, and they played the Cardinal, and the Rockies won! 

Well, I will sign off for now.  I hope you enjoy your first day of Fall, I know I am.



  Sleeping at Last "Pacific"

Anyway

It is the first of September.  I love this time of year.  The air is becoming cooler and I feel so charged, as if I can accomplish anything.  I do not care for the Summer, I do not believe I ever did, except when I was a kid and I did enjoy the long Summer days and nights.

I am still working in the ER.  I so enjoy the job, but I did apply for another position at the hospital, I haven't heard anything yet.  God knows what is best, and if this job I applied for is not for me, well that is okay.

 My, son, Nathaniel and I took a friend and her daughters to The Broadmoor today, she had never been.  I believe the walk around the lake did me some good.  I love going to The Broadmoor, the architect alone is such perfection.  Later, my son and I decided to have dinner, so we went to the grocery store; purchased a cheap bag of chips.  Then we went to 7-11 and purchased a Big Gulp with two straws and then picked up a sandwich.  Nathaniel wanted to eat at the Garden of the gods, so we drove out and spent some much needed family time.  It was a rather lovely evening to catch up on things in our lives. 

As Nathaniel and I were driving away, he shared his dreams with me. He would like to be a photographer, but a counselor he had a year ago laughed at this idea and told him it would never happen.  You know, that really pissed me off, because my son has a great eye and takes some phenomenal photos.  I told him that he should not believe this bitches remarks.  It always amazes me that a person could have great support from family and friends, but it only takes one bitter person to ruin it.  I reminded my son that he should never listen to people whose hearts are crusted with bitterness, regret and fear.  I told him that he should never give up on his dreams.  I asked my son if he has seen me ever give up on my dreams, and he said, "no."

There will be hurdles my son will have to jump, but I know he will be okay.  I pray that Jesus will always have his back.  He tries so hard.  I am very proud of my son, and I believe that one day his dreams will come true.

And to the crusty hearts that unfortunately my son has met, and will continue to meet along his journey. Fuck You!!!

Martina McBride, "Anyway"