1st Year Anniversary

A year ago today, June 13, 2013, I suffered a brain aneurysm. I went through an unbelievable journey, another test of where my heart dwells. I know that my Father in heaven has allowed me to still be here, I do not know what the reason is, but I am grateful! No one can know what the Lord has in store for our lives, but it is good to know that He is there in the midst of all the chaos. The stories that were shared after this ordeal was over were beyond that of the natural world, but a supernatural presence took over and many felt it. My son who bore much of the pressure almost lost his only family he had. I thank the Lord every day for what he brought me through, no one could ever imagine how hard it was for me to fully surrender to the Lord. This independent, strong, opinionated woman had to finally submit to my loving Father's arms. I believe the Lord wanted me to just rest and depend only on Him. He knew I needed to rest and to let Him take the reigns and for me to stop fighting. He knew I needed that very much. I learned to let go, though I am still a little independent, a little strong and still very much opinionated. I am grateful for all those who prayed for me, whose concern was if I would be the same. I do not believe I am the same person. How could someone go through something like that and feel that they are the same. Who would want to be the same? I believe I am slowly being transformed to becoming a new creation. I also believe that this experience has made me stronger and to continue the journey that the Lord has in His plans for me with a joyful outlook. I want to be victorious in the Lord. A year later I am still in awe of His mercy and grace. What does the Lord have in store for me, again I still don't know, but I will continue to share with those who are willing to listen and show them God's amazing love and God's amazing grace. I am especially very grateful for all those who prayed, fed and took care of me. You showed me Jesus!!! I can still see your faces with Christ's love, concern and mercy. I am so very grateful and truly blessed!!!   I will not pretend to know the answers to the questions of life because I understand how it feels to almost leave this world and be with my Father in heaven, though I must admit sometimes I felt a little sad that the Lord didn't want me home, not yet. I remembered a request I had made over 17 years ago; I asked the Lord for adventure in my life. I think I should have been more specific. : ) I am grateful everyday to my Lord, Father, Saviour and King for this second chance, this second shot at life.

 

 

"Life and Death" by Paul Cardall

 

 

 

Mashup

Sometimes you need a little mashup in your life.   

 

The Proclaimers, "Titanium 500"

 

It would have been . . . .

On May 31, 1986 my ex husband and I exchanged vows to love, care, and be there for each other, no matter what.  This past Saturday it would have been 28 years of marriage and I have been separated and divorced for almost 8 years now.  It was a blessing to have gone out with friends in the evening.  It was good to go to the Broadmoor and have an actual drink instead of a 7-Up.  I don't believe one ever stops grieving their broken marriage.  It it good to know that there were some very beautiful times and some not so beautiful times.  There were several songs that my ex would dedicate to me, he would tell me that they would remind him of me.  I love that memory, I will always cherish those memories.  It could have been 28 years of marriage this past Saturday, but now I can listen to the songs my ex would dedicate to me and not fall apart anymore.

 

"Hello" Lionel Richie