Scattered, but Grateful!

My postings on this blog are somewhat scattered.  There are days I write about little things, the little things that still have a great impact on my life.  My two sons had birthdays.  Sergio, would have been 30 this year and Nathaniel is 24, time does fly.  Today I would have celebrated my 30th wedding anniversary, if I was still married, but if I would have been married, I would have been a widow.  I am feeling a lot better, especially with the things of the heart.  The lessons of life are never ending, which is something I am okay with.  I was thinking about all my beautiful blessings the other day.  I realized that God has been so gracious with me, it just boggles my mind, but it has helped to soften my heart too.

I look at what is going around in the world, the hopelessness that surrounds us, but I remind myself the Lord still sits on the throne and then my hope is restored.  I carry the scars of things I wish I have never been exposed to, but evil dwells in this world, and we are the pawns.  Again, the Lord restores us, not completely, but enough as we can remember where we have been. 

Another scattered entry.  I believe I am writing with some depth of my heart, which is still healing.  I  posted a photo of my son and myself.  A friend remarked that we both looked happy.  I told her that we are getting there, but you know I am joyful.  I am joyful from the deepest well of my soul.  I am grateful every day for God's mercy and blessings.  I am where I need to be for the time being.  What else could I ask for.  There is saying my son uses from time to time.  He learned this saying from a Pastor in our old church.  It goes something like this, "God is good. All the time. Especially, today!"

Yes, He is!  Enjoy yours!

My son, Nathaniel and his adorable Mother!



For Jack

 

I hope all is well in Oklahoma.  I hope you're enjoying looking up at the stars from your telescope.

 

Moody Blues, "Nights in White Satin"

 



Personal Principles

Well, my week has been somewhat uneventful.  After editing my previous entry more than I can count, and I don't want to.  I was in the midst of preparing for a coffee date for Friday morning.  I had corresponded with a gentleman last Sunday, and we had set to meet for coffee the following Friday morning at 8:30.  We had not picked a place to meet, and I had not given him my name.  So, I sent this man an email on Monday morning. I never received a response, even after he was on the website that morning.  I gave this man grace, he was a teacher at UCCS, and he may have been extremely busy with grades and so on.

Tuesday and Wednesday came and went . . .  nothing.  So, I made up my mind that if he communicates with me on Thursday, I would let him know that I was no longer interested.  You, see, I believe if a man wants to do something with a woman, you plan it ASAP.  I gave this man until midnight on Wednesday.  After that, I did not want to meet a man who waits until the last minute to make plans, especially for the first date.  Not happening. 

Well, he did contact me on Thursday afternoon and sent me an email.  He asked me how my day was going.  I didn't even get a response to my questions, or even a are we still up for coffee tomorrow?  Nothing.  Well, this cheeky is not having any of that!  So, I replied to his email with my thanks, but no thanks message.  Which goes something like this, "Thank you, for your interest.  I hope you find your match.  Blessings in your search."  Done.

I feel pretty good for standing up for my personal principles.  This man is over 50 years of age, and in all those years that he was married and now divorced, he learned absolutely nothing?!  I am afraid that this is becoming the norm.  It is sad, but true. 

As a woman I need to remind myself that I am worthy of the work.  I am worthy of the trouble.  I have value and that includes my time.  The thing is this man knew he blew it, because after I sent him the e-mail, within minutes he signed off from the website. 

I am not trying to be smug about this whole situation, but come on!  If a man asks a woman out on a date, keep the lines of communication open.  And, stop being a wussy!

Chick Flicks and such

I will be the first to admit that I LOVE CHICK FLICKS!!  I cannot help it.  I just do.  Especially, chick flicks that are funny.  There is something about a girl who meets boy, who is cute and somewhat funny.  The boy is smart and a little bit of a hard ass.  The girl at first cannot stand boy because he could be such a douche, but then eventually girl comes around and falls in love with boy.  The boy now has softened his heart towards life and realizes that girl helped him.   Boy, is crazy about girl and would jump across a lake of fire to be with girl.  You know, real life stuff!

Okay, that if a bunch of bullshit, but that is why chick flicks are so fun, they are full of bullshit and women like myself eat it all up!  And, I LOVE IT!!

Now, that I have shared my quick synopses of my love for movies of love.  I just might play "Nights in Rodanthe," which I believe I have watched over a dozen times . . . yes, I have . . .  and I will not apologize for that, and that my friends is a rap.

 

 Iris Vaessen, "Maps in Bed"