Rain Scent (Sent)

Since my surgery, everything seems more vibrant in my surroundings; colors, sounds and even when watching a movie for what would be the millionth time, it is like I am understanding the story in its entirety for the first time.  My surroundings have been amplified.  My speech therapist did allude to that fact and encouraged me that sometimes it may be just a little too much, but that it will subside to where it will not overwhelm me; the brain is such a delicate and fierce organ.  I wake up every morning thanking the Lord for his ever present mercy on me and my family, even my two precious dogs.  My words could never express how grateful and blessed I am.

I do think about the most silliest things in my life, and what an interesting life it is.  God has been faithful.  He has given me the outs when things were discouraging and dark.  He has shown me to be thankful and joyful in the midst of pain.  There have been times I would think and ask, "What did I do?"  I have felt the separation from God, but only to sense His presence return and not let go of me.  I have cried out and felt His strength when he lifts me up and carries me through the heart break.  He has provided the most amazing people in my life who have given without reservation.  I believe that the Lord will continue to see me through whatever comes my way, and I do pray that my gratefulness and service to Him will never end.  Thank You, Father.  Thank You.



The lessons of Faith

Well, I do not know if anyone is reading this blog, but if you are and check into any entries once in awhile.  I just want to apologize for not writing in the last several months.  A lot has happen especially in the month of June 13, 2013.  I suffered a brain aneurysm.  God is good and I am so grateful for listening to Him speak into my heart to call 911.  I had emergency surgery and the surgeon was able to clip the aneurysm which saved my life.  Thank you, Father for speaking into my heart and thank you Father for the surgeon who you used to save my life.  I am still recuperating with physical and speech therapy.  I have all my functionalities. Praise God!  I have to build my strength because I still have two more clots that need to be taken care of, so I have surgery in the near future.  Am I scared?  Not really scared, just concerned.  The second and third surgery will not be as invasive, but I still pray that the Lord would intervene and remove the clots himself.  It is in His hands, not mine.  Through all this insanity I have been blessed.  I am thankful to my friends who take me to appointments, bring meals, offer to clean my home and it goes on and on.  I love them so much!!!!! I am truly blessed and honored to have such wonderful people in my life.  I truly am blessed!!!!

I have a journey to take in reference to my healing.  I miss my walks and hikes, but I know I will get back to that in the near future.  I miss my drives and just living, even vacuuming my home is a missed blessing; believe it or not.  I know I have the prayers of loved ones and I also have their support.  Father, please bless all those who stepped up and have covered me with their prayers and love. Father, bless the surgeon and his family and all those who are involved in the medical field.  Father, bless the EMT's who asked the right questions on the day of my aneurysm and did not take "no" from me, but insisted in me going to the emergency room.  Father, I especially want to thank you with all my being for loving me and giving me a second chance.  Thank you!!! Thank you!!!  Blessings to all!!!

 

Grateful for God's mercy on me.

 

 

Jesus and the two criminals

This piece of artwork was done for The Perspective art show at my church during Holy week.  This piece was the story of the two criminals that hung on either side of Jesus, which is in the book of Luke 23:39-43.  The story of grace and forgiveness that was given to one of the criminals who asked Jesus to remember him when Jesus entered his kingdom and Jesus reply was "Assuredly, I say to you, today you will be with Me in Paradise."  We all deserve the condemnation of eternal separation from God, but Jesus paid it all for those who ask to be forgiven, He does.  No sin is too great. 

 

Thanks JD for being a sport and modeling for me.

 

 

"Be with me in Paradise"

22 x 30

Ink, pencil and wash

 

 

 

He Is Risen!!!

 

HAPPY EASTER !!!

THE LORD HAS PAID IT ALL!!!

 

First posting for 2013. For Shame!

This is my first posting for 2013, what have I been doing.  Well for starters I started a new job with another ministry.  I hated leaving my job with the ministry I had been with for over nine years, but I needed a full time job.  So, being on my own I had to take care of business, not that I didn't take care of business before, but it was good to bounce off ideas on someone else.  Now, if I screw up, it is my fault.  Anyways, I did say I would share more of what I have been doing.  Well, I have been hiking more, which is slowly becoming an addiction and it has helped with getting back in shape.  I also walk my dogs two miles a day which helps too, but hiking, well that is a natural high.  I am submitting a drawing for our church art show this coming week.  I am pretty psyched about that, but it will help if I start working on the piece instead of doing everything but.  Augh!  I am an artist, it is a process. ha  My son is doing well.  I am very proud of him and I ask the Lord to give him favor for the rest of his days.  My son has a huge heart and he loves serving others.  Though I have found myself in a bit of a slump though, maybe the settlings of my divorce are starting to take its course.  I have been going to a support group for divorced people, and all I have to say is that it has been a tremendous blessing!!!  This is my second time around attending this course and I so much enjoy it. I will be seeing my sister and brother in law.  It is good to have family around, especially since my famly is very small.  Well enough!!  God is good and I am so abundantly blessed!!  So, for this being my first posting for the year 2013; I will be sharing my new adventures and I will try not to stay away for too long.

My son, Nate in one of our morning hikes

Beautiful day at Red Rock Canyon in
 Colorado Springs

                                    

 

 

 

 

 

 

What an amazing day. 

 

 

 

 

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS

AND IT IS A GLORIOUS CHRISTMAS!!!  Thank you Father for the wonderful gift of your son who came to save us from ourselves and eternal separation.  Father, please give Sergio a kiss and hug from me and please tell him I love him and miss him very much.  Merry Christmas mijo!  Also, a Merry Christmas for my son, Nathaniel.  I am very proud of you mijo and I love the man you are becoming.  Sergio and Nathaniel loved the Rich Mullin's song, "You Gotta Get Up"  So here it goes boys.

 

 

Check Box Mrs., Miss or Ms. (No longer Mrs.)

I am officially a divorced woman, as of December 17, 2012 my divorce decree was signed.  I received in the mail a copy of the signed Dissolution of Marriage papers yesterday December 20, 2012. My son was very helpful and reminded me that I have been alone for a very very long time, and I agreed with him; even when my ex was sitting right next to me, I felt alone, very alone.  There were no tears of my failed marriage, no outcries to the Lord, no nothing.  I don't know if that is good or bad thing, maybe my volcanic meltdown will take place when I least expect me, like when the drain is clogged or I find dirty socks behind the dryer, who knows.  Though praying hard to avoid such outburst is something that planning from my part will help.  It was good to talk with friends about this, they saw everything that had happened, they opened their arms to my ex and knew of his addiction, they loved on him as I did, but unfortunately with some reservation on my part.  There was no repentance in my ex's part.  How did I know that, well because he was still distant with me and our son, insecure, arrogant and struggled with anything that had to do with our marriage; it was only when the realization that his addiction was his LOVE, not the Lord, family or friends.  I hope he finds all the happenings his addictions give him, but I know that will only be for a short time. I pray that he gets the help he needs.  A lot needs to happen in my part; right now I am working fulltime, getting my house in some kind of order for the gazzionlith time; taking care of myself, my son and my doggies.  Though I have to admit there is some sadness to this ending especially a marriage; marriages have to be the worst sad endings of all.  I know that everything will be okay because living through all this insanity has helped me to rely totally on the Lord, more so now than ever before.  So, I may not be a Mrs. anymore, but I do not Miss the hurt, lies, secrets, betrayals and carrying the shame from my ex's sin, I don't have to, and I am glad that there is a box to mark off Ms. if I do not want anyone to know if I am married or not, because that would be my secret.

 

 



Birthday

Today is my birthday.  Happy Birthday to me!!  I am how old now?  Can't recall, memory loss, sign of old age.   I have plans later this morning to drive to Denver with a friend and head up to the Denver Art Museum and have the privilege of admiring some of Vincent Van Gogh's work from private collectors.  I have been looking forward to this for months, and now it will be.  Thank you Father!  Boy time does fly, especially after the age of 30; and it does not go down hill from there, it has been an amazing ride.  So I better get myself up to bed and rest my pretty little eyes so that I may admire the work from a beautiful soul.  Also, my dear friend is taking me to lunch, so I will be ordering a very LARGE piece of chocolate cake.  I just hope they have chocolate cake on the menu.  : )

 

 

Blessings from above

I pray that everyone around the world has a wonderful day and life of pure thankfulness.  We sometimes take things for granted and forget our blessings; we just don't see them.  Unfortunatley it takes seeing someone else's devastation to wake us up and literally smell the the embers of our lives.  God has been faithful in many ways, even I cannot count them, and why try.  I was currently hired with another ministry in a full time capacity, I know that the Lord gave me favor, they had over 30 applicants for this position; many with far more experience than me.  I am very excited and a little scared.  New employment, new people, new training, new everything.  God is good, He will guide me, He always does.  Though the other night I was starting to stress over how I was going to keep up in walking my dogs, drawing, renovating and so on.  Then I realized I need to trust the Lord, and he has given me friends who are very supportive and understanding with my craziness.  I had a dear friend say to me, "It's doable" I love him for that.  He just said those simple words and I was ok.  I believe God used my friend to keep me grounded; sometimes that is all I need is to bounce my chaotic thoughts to someone and then I am ok.  Thank you JD!

On this day of Thanksgiving, which for me is everyday.  I want to pray blessings to everyone who has sustained me in such a dark time, first the Lord, then my son, my sister and my wonderful friends who have been a pillar of graciouness and strength for me and my son.  Thank you Father for such blessings in my life.

Also, I want to take the time to wish those who may be reading this blog a wonderful day of THANKSGIVING.  May the Lord guide and bless your days! 

This blog was started with the intent of writing about my surrounds in Colorado Springs, but lately I feel that the Lord has used it to help in my healing, and will continue to help with my healing.  Though I am ready to start sharing my surroundings again. 

 

HAVE A WONDERFUL THANKSGIVING!!

 

 

This is me . . . just me

I am not someone who really likes having their photo taken.  So, about a month ago while house and pet sitting for a friend I started taking photos of my surroundings.  One very bored evening I took several photos of myself.  They were not great, but passable; prefer photographing others.   My son Nathaniel now has pictures of his mom, because honestly there are hardly any photos of myself.  Nathaniel also wants to have pictures taken for Christmas cards, so I am starting to psych myself out to comply with his wishes.  

 

So this is me . . . . just me. . . .

(Picture taken September 2012)

 

 

 

 

"Oh my Love"

One of my favorite pastimes is listening to music, mostly great rock from groups like Genesis, Peter Gabriel, Journey, Styx and so on.  Well anyways, there is a song that just stays with you that praises the Lord in all His glory.  I love to listen to Christian music, but sometimes a secular song captures the essence of ones heart and the particular song I have been replaying over and over is the song from Genesis, "Follow you, follow me"  It gives joy to my heart as I sing this song to the Lord, my love.