June already?

Okay, where did May go?  It is now mid June only six months until Christmas.  A lot of decisions that I need to make, a lot of changes coming my way.  One is which I am considering selling my home.  I am considering this move possibly next year.  I still need to do research in moving closer up north, buying land and renting a small house or condo.   I am just speaking these plans out loud.  I will still continue renovations on the house, sweat equity, but I have several friends who would help with painting and flooring, etc.  I love my friends, they are great.  With the month of May going by I realized that I would have been married 26 years, divorce papers have not been filed yet, it wasn't time yet, but now it's time.  I still need to finish school.  A lot to consider.  I am beginning to feel the winds of change starting to blow in my life, I know they will be positive.  God has been so gracious with me this past year, I needed to continue healing which I must admit I feel stronger, I'm beginning to feel more like me again.  All I have to say is that I will not put up with any bullshit from another man again!  What happened to that girl who didn't stand for stupidity, she is no longer a girl, but becoming a stronger woman with the Lord's help. 

I was asked recently by a gentleman friend if I was ready to start dating.  I had to think about this question.  I feel that maybe in the possible near future like six months or a year or two years I may be ready.  I will wait for the Lord to let me know, because right now he is my husband and he is doing a great job of taking care of me.  He has met all the desires of my heart and comforts me and surrounds me while cleansing my wounded spirit.  Wow, how raw am I becoming on this post.  I am only speaking truth.  Please do not misunderstand me, it's freaking over.  I am just going through the healing process which I understand is normal; it helps working with professional counselor's.  I do feel considerably better, as a matter of fact I am happy and at peace.  I saw a friend today who said I looked great.  I thought no shit!