One year anniversary

December 17, 2013 was my one year anniversary, from my divorce.  I cannot say that it was not sad, because it was.  Not that I miss my ex-husband, but a whole family was rooted from its foundation.  I cried a little, but I mainly was thinking of how my boys were both affected.  It is so much bullshit to know that someone could be so selfish and not care that they are hurting their "loved ones."  My son and I are healing, it is a process.  Maybe one day my ex will realize the hurt that he caused his family.  I don't hate my ex-husband, I just feel sorry for him.  He had it good, not perfect, but good.  My ex wanted, what he wanted.

You may be asking how I coped with being divorced a year, or maybe you are not asking, but I will tell you.  Prayer, forgiveness, acceptance and going forward.  Every single day.  Now, last year I had purchased a bottle of champagne, only I was going to use the champagne in memory of my wedding anniversary as a divorced woman, but it just did not feel right.  So, last night in honor of my 1st year as a divorced woman I opened my first bottle of champagne.  Yep, I didn't shoot my eye out and didn't give myself a concussion.  After I had my drink of the bubbly I placed my wedding glass in a plastic bag and smashed it against the counter.  It was closure and it was odd seeing the pieces of shattered glass, almost poetic, like a shattered marriage.