Blessings from above!

Several days ago I was having a conversation with the Lord, which is how my prayer time goes.  The Lord knows my needs and the desires of my heart.  One of the topics of conversation/prayer were my blessings.  I asked the Lord for "better" blessings.  The audacity of me requesting better blessings, but what I was really asking for was not to have so much tragedy.  I believe a person could only handle so much, and though I give the Lord the glory for His seeing me through the chaos of life, I wanted calmness, security, health and love.  As I was requesting all the things that I believe are non chaotic.  I was feeling sorry for myself because I did not believe that my life was adventurous, exciting, colorful and absurdly free flowing.  I felt like such a brat, but I was being upfront with my heart to my Father.

As I gave my request and would have patiently waited for an answer, God came through in the midst of my whining.  He gently reminded me that he was there when I was dying.  He breathed life into me, for a second time, and I did not end up sitting in a corner drooling.  He reminded me of the things that I had seen, done and experienced.  I had slept on the beach of Barbados underneath the coconut trees.  I have seen phenomenal sunsets on the beaches of Cape May.  I have prayed with those who have gone to be with the Lord.  I have seen majestic mountains, lake and rivers.  I have sold some of my art.  I have worked in several interesting jobs, everything from flipping hamburgers, to working in the ER.  I have seen and done some pretty amazing things, so why my ungratefulness.  His answer brought me back down to the realization that my life has been a wonderful adventure, which includes the chaos!

 

Sometimes, I conveniently forget the beauty of God's grace in my life and the blessings that are in abundance.  He has cared for me and has placed at times complete strangers to help me, and then He has given me opportunities to help others.  I am blessed beyond comprehension, and I need to remind myself on why I started this blog.  It was to count my blessings, all my blessings from above!

 

Mindy Gledhill, "Anchor"