Such a fun song!

 No, no love, just enjoying a great song that I would sing to myself when I was feeling a little silly.  I am feeling a little silly.

 

Kelly Rowland

"Train on the Tracks"

 

Quiet solitude

After a busy day at work, when I get home all I want to do is .  .  .  .  nothing.  At work I am like, oh yeah I'll get the laundry done, wash the dishes, organize my pile of papers, you know the same bull hokey.  But when I get home it is another story; I am beat.  Though at night before I go to bed I enjoy writing, not necessarily to any particular person, but just sitting on my bed with my laptop, like now.  I enjoy the quietness of my home with light music playing from my laptop; gotta love Pandora!!  I like sharing my thoughts with whoever gives a rip or doesn't.  It doesn't matter because I am sharing from my heart and depths of my soul.  Who knew I could do that.  Sometimes I write because it is the only time I can write about how amazing life truly is.  I am still grateful, tired, but grateful.  Well, before I go off on a tangent I will resign to sign off and go to bed.  Blessings and good night to you and Thank You, Father for another day.

 

"In Reverence"

 by David Tolk

In the shadows

My life seems to be falling into a sense of balance right now.  I am so grateful for that.  I am also grateful for my friends who have been a pillar of strength at times for me, I so appreciate them.  I am still trying to tackle the piles of papers that need to be organized and I hate to say it, but the pile is getting bigger everyday.  AUGH!!!  I will continue packing up my home as time permits, or if I have the energy to do it.  I know, I know!!  I have to get down to the nitty gritty and get my work done.

I did receive a text from a friend wanting to make plans.  So we discussed going to the Ivywild School for dinner.  The Ivywild used to be an elementary school that was closed several years ago, the school is an old relic which is a fantastic architectural jewel.  Well there is a eatery, bakery and a brewery in the school now; really a swanky place if I do say so myself.  When I walked in the halls of this old school several weeks ago, I imagined the shadows of children who passed through these halls and what their lives might have become.  Also, it could have been the Honey Wheat beer I had . . . anyways . . . . I have always loved old buildings and have always been intrigued in reference to the people who occupied the homes and buildings and if these people loved these timely dwellings.  I know I do.

Anyways . . . that is the plan, but when dealing with my friend she can change her mind very quickly.  So, I will include the link to this intersteing building that will continue to hold shadows of many more people who come through it's doors and enjoy a lovely meal, baked good, music and a beer.  http://ivywildschool.com/

Have a great weekend!!

 

 

Til I hear it from you-AMERICA style

It has been a real eye opener on how things work.  I haven't heard from my lawyers since I lost my case and I believe I won't.  I have been well though and just pushing forward to what lies ahead.  I was able to enjoy a fantastic concert given by my favorite band, "AMERICA."   They played in Colorado Springs at the Pike's Peak Center and they were spectacular!!  I was able to get a ticket, only the last ticket for an amazing price and I went.  Yes, I went alone.  It didn't feel funny and people around you get to talking, so it didn't matter.  I am not saying that it didn't feel weird.  I would have preferred going with a friend, but sometimes an opportunity opens up and you take it.  I have been taking some baby steps on getting back to what I was doing before I had my aneurysm.  I need to start my healthy eating, resting and exercising mode.  It is hard to start up again, but I need to do it for me.  I love taking fun chances of enjoying my life again.  I am very much looking forward to hiking, walking and cruising areas in Colorado that I have never been to.  I want to explore my state a little this Summer.  I want to attend some more amazing concerts this Summer.  I want to maybe even fall in love.  Okay, the falling in love thing will probably not happen any time soon, but I got a little carried away with my writing.  Though, it was nice feeling that kind of excitement.  I hate to say this, but I miss writing to Mr. Man.  I really do.  I miss the friendship we were developing.  Oh well .  .  .  .

So, as I am about to close out.  I am so grateful to the Lord, He made it possible for me to attend the concert this past Friday.  I am so glad I went. I always wanted to see AMERICA and they were really fantastic!!!  No gimmicks, just a plain old fashioned rock concert with great music and down to earth people who brought fun nostalgia to many in attendance.  Thank you, AMERICA!!  You rock!!

 

"Til I hear it from you"  AMERICA

 

 



Open your eyes

Today was the most trying day since my aneurysm surgery.  I lost in a court case and now I have to pay for court costs to the opposing council and a very large corporation, the same corporation that I had been paying premiums on my insurance for over 20 years.  It figures.  I am not upset that I lost, but now I am so indebted.  What gets me is that the jury felt that my insurance company did not comply with their part of the deal, but they were unaware that I have to pay thousands of dollars to the very corporation that I had purchased security to provide help when needed.  I basically was screwed, twice.  It is very frustrating.  It was a 50/50 gamble, and I lost.  I could use a miracle about now, but I will just have to accept the fact that life is not an enchanted place.  I believe I need to remove my rose colored glasses now.  I do not want to become a woman who is bitter and angry, I've done that route before.  I just need to accept the basic facts that not everyone has a full tank in their lives, some of us are barely coasting with fumes.  I am grateful for all that I do have, even though I am losing most of it.  I guess I do sound a bit upset, and I am.  Even after I got home the cursing just would not stop.  I will try not to worry too much, but I will probably have to file for bankruptcy.  In this junction of my life who gives a rip anymore.  I will do the best that I can do, that is all I can do.  Even though the tears would not stop flowing and I am so ever thankful to the Lord for giving me the strength to fight, and it was a good fight.  I will "do whatever just to stay alive," I will.  You know, I could maybe wear a fainter pair of rose colored glasses.  I mean really, they do help when dark days come.

"Stay Alive"

Jose Gonzalez

 

 

 

 



A little blue must fall on us all

It is snowing today, it looks quite lovely.  Usually, it comforts me in some ways to see the softness and caressing dance that snowflakes make while gliding down from the sky.  As I type this entry I am looking outside my large dining room window and also listening to Lynyrd Skynyrd's "Sweet Home Alabama."  Uh, not really appropriate music for this beautiful scenery.  What can I say?  Some things in life can be trivial. 

I am feeling a little under the weather today, actually, I feel about 90% better than I did Sunday.  I cannot go into detail of this stomach flu, but boy it knocked me out of my socks.  My son, Nathaniel was ill first and then I got ill, and he became ill again on Monday morning.  So, yesterday I pulled a Pine Sol onslaught and filled a large bucket with hot water and Pine Sol and wiped everything in the house; my house smells like an infirmary, but at least it is clean and disinfected. 

It has been an interesting week at work too, I think my barrier was infiltrated with stress and disgust.  Sometimes, I just want to pull a Walter Mitty and just tell people to stop being "dicks."  I have it in me, but the wisdom of my wise confidants is to keep silent, don't burn bridges.  Sometimes leadership, lacks that, leadership.  It is good to have people who know me well and steer me to take a breathe, pray and ask God to give me clarity.  I love where I work and I also love the people that I work closely with, they are phenomenal!  It was good that I called out today, I wouldn't want to hurl on management's shoes.  It was coming up this morning, even before I left work, I couldn't stomach going in.  I hate being physically weak, and emotionally charged.  Bad combination. 

Anyways . . .

I will be alright.  It is probably a season I have to go through.  It sucks, but I have to see it through and face the giants with my little pebble and sling shot.  I will have to just trudge along until I find my niche.  I am grateful for my job and love what the company does.  I am grateful for my health and that my stomach flu will pass through, no pun intended.  So, right now Lynyrd Skynyrd's, "Sweet Home Alabama" is the appropriate song to continue looking out at the glistening snow.

 

Lynyrd Skynyrd's, "Sweet Home Alabama"

with one of my favorite films, "Forrest Gump"

 

Enjoy your day!

 

Castle Rock

This past Saturday, January 25.  My son and I drove up to Castle Rock, Colorado which is about 50 minutes north of Colorado Springs.  It was my first solo drive outside of Colorado Springs since last year.  It was great driving, talking to Nathaniel and listening to music.  I believe we were listening to Train or was it Abba.  I cannot recall and what does did it matter, my son and I were getting out of the Springs, alone.  We stopped by a Subway and had lunch and after lunch we drove into town.  We stopped by The Barn Antique in Castle Rock, which is across from the Fire Department.  Nathaniel and I took out our cameras and started taking photos. We had a great time; this time of photography is what binds my relationship with my son and that is very important to me and I know for him too. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I CAN"T SEE SHEEP!!"

 

 

 

"Our house is a very,very,very fine house"

I was listening to Crosby's, Stills and Nash "Our House" several days ago and I told Nathaniel how much I will be missing our house, (with two dogs in the yard instead of cats).  I love this house, my haven, the castle that God had given us. It was a fortress for me.  I felt safe in my house. Unfortunately, with me being out of work for almost six months, it took its toll.  I had to short sale or foreclose, and I was not wanting to foreclose.  Our house was put up for sale on December 29, 2013 and I had an offer on January 4, 2014.  I have a contract and it is breaking my heart.  Yes, "my house is a very, very, very fine house . . . "
It may be a couple of months before we close completely, but I believe I am ready to move on.  Please keep my son and I in prayer to find something to rent.  I would prefer a small house, with at least two bedrooms, one in a half bathrooms or two bathrooms, and a fenced in yard (Also, maybe a fireplace) I can dream you know.  I know the Lord already has the place for us, but I just need to listen to His gentle direction.  So much has happened in the last eight months, sometimes I just want to sleep for days and not wake up until I am completely rested.  But I will continue to walk that narrow path (which unfortunately I tend to tip over from time to time), though I will enjoy the adventures along the way.  I am thankful to the Lord for allowing me to stay in my home while I was still healing; that was definitely a GOD thing!!! A wonderful GOD thing!!!

Thank you, Father.  Thank you, for allowing me to enjoy this house and welcome those who have passed through these doors no matter what their burden.  This house was not for my personal use only, but for those who were in need of you.  Lord, your presence was always felt here.  Father, you are invited to come and stay in my next home, and may your presence be felt by those who will come to know you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



"525,600"

 HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! 
WELCOME 2014 !!!

2013 has been a very trying year for many of us. Our fight has been for our marriages, families, homes, health and just keeping our minds focused on what God would have us do. 2013 has brought tears to many, but also healing and laughter too. I have had the privilege to see God's hand in many of my family and friends lives; I also have had the privilege to see God's merciful hand in my life too. 2013 has blessed many with miracles which are still in progress and strength to continue on this road called life. 2013 may have taken the things that were holding our growth in Christ down, and seeing that through His power we are healed in every sense of the word. 2013 has shown me that God cares about the smallest details in our lives; yes, He does.  2013 also took loved ones from several of my friends and has taught many of us to have courage, hope, patience and love. 2013 has also given us the understanding that life is very precious no matter what our circumstance, we are to be grateful at all times. As I am writing I am thinking about all the stories shared on this very page. The joy, blessings and even the dark moments that eventually makes us who we are. The number 525,600 is actually how many minutes are in a year, (excluding leap years) and we should not waste one moment of it.

So, as we welcome 2014. I pray that everyone who reads this reflects and gives thanks to the Lord for everything we have gone through. Everything. Many blessing to you my friends.  Blessings to all of you in Jesus name and a Happy New Year!!!

-Lilia

 

Colorado's Aspen Glow

I love John Denver's song, "Aspen Glow."  It is possibly my favorite Christmas and Winter song. I am so blessed to live in beautiful Colorado; this is my home on this side of heaven.  I want to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

 

 

John Denver, "Aspen Glow"

 

 



"And a Merry Christmas to you"

I love this time of year.  My writing will be very limited.  Whew, aren't you the lucky one. I believe I am in Christmas overload. Christmas, Christmas, Christmas!!