"Moon River"

Whenever I am lonely  .  .  .  .

 

Henry Mancini, "Moon River"



Geena (aka Ginger)

 

I am blessed with the most amazing friends.  They have been there for so much of my dramatic life.  Boy, and what drama!!  ha   I am so blessed to know that people care about my son and me.  But, this entry is about my friend, Geena (aka Ginger).  I met Geena at a support group for broken hearted people, yes, a divorce support group. 

 

Geena has been a true friend, not only a friend, but a best friend.  We have our moments, all friendships do, but she knows that I would be there for her and vice versa.   Geena, my son and I have certainly had our share of adventures. 

 

Geena is as close as a sister.  I am thankful everyday for the friendships that God has given me.  Especially, friendships that go the distance.  I hope that Geena and I can remain close for a very long time, definitely for eternity, literally.  : )

 

 

 Geena (aka Ginger), thanks

 for being a wonderful friend!

 

 

 



Saturday Adventure in Guffey, CO

Buffalo roaming in Divide, CO

My friend Geena and I decided to take a road trip yesterday to Guffey, CO.  I was recommended by an acquaintance that there was an interesting cemetery that I should visit.  So our adventure began.  Geena and I enjoyed ourselves!  The town of Guffey is interesting to say the least, and the people are friendly.  Of course, they are not thrilled with people moving into town and changing things up, but who is?!  We saw a lot of interesting things too.  Unfortunately, we never found the cemetery, so another road trip is being scheduled.

Beautiful to photograph, maybe even paint.  Watercolors?!  Hmmmm

Nice TUBS!

Bill, Proprietor of Guffey Garage

 

Mr. Bill took a shining to my friend, Geena

       

I think I found a date for next Saturday night.
 I believe the eyes do it for me.  Sexy!

But, this fella might be a little more fun. 

 AUGH!  Decisions! Decisions!

 

Mr. Bill gave my friend Geena and me these little hearts to remember our visit.  He makes them from scrap metal and stated that he gives them to all the ladies that come and visit the town of Guffey.  Bill was an interesting man and Guffey is an interesting town.  Definitely, going back.  There was a Café that we want to try, their BBQ smelled awesome!

 

 

C's Home

There are some homes that when you walk in, there is a certain serenity.  A personality that is totally the person who one is spending time with.  I have such a friend, and her name is "C."  I love going to my friend's "C's"  home.  Her home exudes vibrancy, an eclectic style and a Bohemian lifestyle that I truly appreciate.  "C" is her own person, with her elegant style and appreciation of the delicate, whimsical and bright colors.  I feel relaxed in "C's" home, maybe because her style definitely personifies her personality.  Even her refrigerator reflects the person that "C" is, a little OCD, but she is just fun!  Even though "C" is a quiet reserved person, one can pick up the sultry person that she doesn't think she is.  I love her cobalt blue dishes and her many bunnies in her home. "C" also collects bottle which are displayed throughout her home.  I was given a red bottle which I display lovingly in my dining room.  I admire my friend "C" very much.  She personifies everything I aspire to be.  She is beautiful, inside and out.  She is patient and loving.  She is kind and funny.  She is creative and a fantastic cook, even with her vegan lifestyle, the woman can cook!  I love my friend "C" very much and she has been a blessing to me for several years.  How we met is a story within itself, but the Lord brought us together in an unusual way.  Thank you, Lord, for "C."  She has been a blessing in more ways that I can say.  I am so glad and honored to have her in my life!

My beautiful friend, "C"

 

 

 

 

 

I believe there are sufficient magnets on her fridge. 

 What do you think?

 

 

Lilia A., "The Betrayal"

("C" is the model on the lower right corner)

 

 

 

 

 



Friday Night with America

It is almost 10:30 pm on a Friday night.  I really had nothing planned for tonight.  I talked to several friends on the phone and made plans with them to meet for dinner in a couple of weeks.  No date, no movies, no drinks, no nothing.  It is just me and "America."  I was planning to stop by the liquor store and purchase a bottle of wine, but that didn't even seem enticing.  What?!  No wine!!  ha  I will be picking up Nathaniel around 11 pm.  I figured there really was not much to do.  Bills are paid, apartment is cleaned, dogs are fed and dishes are still waiting for me in the sink.  Ummmm, those can wait.  It seems odd that I didn't plan anything for tonight.  Maybe subconsciously, I wanted it that way.  Just me and "America," and why not?  Damn!  I knew I should have stopped by the liquor store, a glass of wine would have been great right now.  Oh well, I will need to be getting out soon and then I am hitting the sack early, yeah 11:30 pm is early, at least for me.  Well, listening to one of my favorite rock bands does make up for the lack of wine, especially when listening to "America" on a Friday Night.

 

America, "Never Found the Time"



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I am in solitude

I do not have a problem with being alone, it somehow helps me with dealing with my every day life..  I love my friends and family, but I hate that I am always bombarded to do something with them, and sometimes I just want to be left alone.  Don't get me wrong, I do get lonely.  I enjoy the stimulation of a great conversation.  It is difficult for people to understand that I need that balance of solitude and being with people.  I am not a fan of crowds or loud venues, but I can deal with them for awhile.  I have been this way since I was a kid, and friends find it hard to accept that kind of "behavior."  Even when I was married, my ex would question my solitude and I had my reasons.  I felt alone, so why not be alone.  He didn't want to see the whole picture, he didn't care to.

In solitude I am able to break down everything that has gone in my life and put it in another perspective.  I guess I needed to write this, it is something I have been wanting to say just straight out.  I am not someone that is needy, but I do need.  I would like to depend on someone one day, because they can be for certain that they could depend on me.   So, if in my solitude I can see things through and continue with my healing, then so be it.  If this truth causes pain to those who read this entry, I do not apologize, because you should already know me by now. 

In its rawest form, one of the benefits of my solitude is that I have had intense conversations with God.  I have prayed and praised Him in the most darkest moments of my life, and having that time of solitude has benefited me in more ways than not.  Being in solitude with God has grown me, and if you think about it, many of the Lord's followers were loners, and what they have shared with the world is nothing but PHENOMENAL!!

Ingrid Michaelson, "Sort Of"



Strangely Beautiful

This video clip from the movie, "The Doctor," made me cry.  I recall that the most important thing when I was sick was the chance to dance with no reservations.  I dance everyday, because life is a beautiful gift from God!

 

Laurie Anderson, "Strange Angels"

 

 

 

Sunday drive

I was restless today.  I wanted to just go anywhere.  My son Nathaniel got up and left for church but didn't let me know he was leaving.  He later stated that he did not want to disturb me, so I didn't go to church either.  I finally got ready and went for a short drive with my son, then I went out and drove up Hwy 83,  I ended up in the town of Castle Rock.  I so wanted to have my favorite Iced Mocha coffee at Dazbog on Colfax and 2nd St, but the coffee shop closed at 5 pm.  So, I just decided to come home.  The drive home was restful and the mountains looked spectacular.  I was glad I took the drive, unfortunately, I did not take any photos.  So, I will be posting a photo from a drive I took several weeks ago. 

Before, I leave I wanted to share that my date on Friday night was wonderful!  The gentleman was kind, intelligent, extremely sexy and handsome and just FUN!  I had not had a date like that in . . . . never.  Not, that I had not had fantastic times on a dates with others, but this man and I talked.  He asked me questions and waited for me to answer, without interruption!  We met for dinner at 6 pm and our date ended at 2:30 am.  I felt very comfortable with him and if nothing else I am glad I went out with him.  We ended up walking around the Broadmoor Hotel after dinner and having coffee at the Broadmoor bar, we closed the bar.  After leaving the Broadmoor we went for a drive, and then our date ended with me driving this gentleman back to his car.  It was just so much of everything nice!



 This photo was taken at a friends house in Black Forest, CO

 

 

 

 

 

2016

Another year is upon us!  I know I am only a month in a half overdue, but I needed to take some time and make some adjustments.  Personal ones.  My Christmas was quiet and a little melancholy.  My son, Nathaniel is grieving his father, as am I, but we are making the best of what God has planned for us.  New Years I spent at work.  Unfortunately, I missed the fireworks on Pikes Peak, which is something I hate to miss.  My Valentine's was spent with the love in my life, my son, Nathaniel.  Again, I had to work, but we spent the morning and early afternoon together.  I made an early dinner and he baked a cake.  I let him do his thing.  I feel my spirit on edge recently, as if a change needs to take place.  I know I am giving myself at least six months to a year to decide if I will continue living in Colorado Springs.  So much is going on with my life, some good and so many uncertainties.  I hate that feeling of not having some stability, but I do not believe that I have ever had that.  My job is going well.  I love my new church.  I am slowly reconnecting with friends that I shut out after my ex died.  I appreciate that they know me enough to leave me alone, and I love that they are there when I do contact them. 

Nathaniel and I went to an outing today up in Denver.  On our way back we talked about his father, and he asked me if I missed him.  I told him I did.  Then he asked me if I think about what he did, and then he went unto say that that didn't matter anymore to him.  I told my son that what happened is done, no sense in reliving that which God has closed the door on.  I also told Nathaniel that it was okay to cry for his dad, because I still did.  I do miss both my ex husband and my son.  I know I always will.  I did not want to start the new year with such a depressing entry, but when a family is torn by trauma and death, it is a process to heal.  And yeah, I am taking that time, and if anyone doesn't care for this process, go FUCK yourselves!!  Alrighty then, that felt good!!

Tomorrow night I have a date with someone I have been corresponding with since last November.  I do feel that I am ready to go out and take a chance on a little romance.  My sister and close friends are happy that I am taking chances with dating again.  So am I.

Now, that I have brought you up to speed with my crazy life.  I hope that as you have read my blog my strongest ally in life has been the Lord.  I know that I would not be able to handle everything that has happened without God's hand in my life.  Great to know that the King/Creator/Savior of the universe cares about you and me.  Yeah, great to know!!

  I so do love to laugh!! 

 

 



Interlude

 

"Interlude"  Shane and Shane

 

 

Mr. Stone

 Mr. Stone, after seeing you and kissing you for what would be the last time.  I wish so much good in your life.  I pray for you, for your safety as you continue in your phenomenal adventures.  I pray for your spirit, mind, heart and soul.  It has been a wonderful pleasure knowing you.  Blessings to you Mr. Stone, and I did fall in love with you, and I am so glad that I could!!

 

David Gates, "Goodbye Girl"