Friendship with benefits

Not too long ago I had a "man" tell me that he would like to be friends and we could do things together, but there was a condition.  Because he was a "man" he would want to be intimate at times. A friendship with benefits, WOW, what a concept!!  I remember sitting across from this "man" and thinking to myself, "I have never had anyone offer their friendship with any conditions."  Of course, I did turn him down, and we are not friends. 

Mind you, it would have been nice to have had this "man" as a friend.  I think if the sex part did not play into account, we would have been "great friends."  Then I remembered the movie, "When Harry met Sally."  The conversation where Harry tells Sally that men could never be friends with women, because the sex part would always be an issue.

Anyways . . .

Why am I writing about this, well because when I am doing chores I think about some unusual things that have happened in my life.  It is funny, and I also realized that this "man" had shared with me that he never has sex with his "female friends."  Yeah right . . . . . .  Well, now that I had my chuckle I will get back to my laundry.  Maybe, I will think of something else that has happened in my life.  I could use another chuckle.   : )

 

 

"When Harry met Sally"

Birthday Wishes

Happy Birthday, to my son Nathaniel!!
 

 

You were two years old when I first met you.  We were sitting in a front porch swing after visiting with you for awhile.  You looked up at me and had such a sweet smile, and when you put your little hand over my hand, I was smitten.  You have brought joy into my life and helped me know how it feels to be a mother.  I finally understood about the sacrifices that a parent makes for her children.  Well worth the sacrifices.  Every mother still sees her child as a small vulnerable being, but you are a young man now.  I pray that God will give you favor in your life.  I pray that God will use you greatly.  I give thanks to the Lord for allowing me to have you in my life.  Happy Birthday, Nathaniel!!  Blessing on this day and blessings always.  Love you very much, Mom.

 

Perry Como, "Catch a Falling Star"

 

 

 

 

Fast Car

Aside from working nights, I am grateful I can get in my mom mobile and take my drives to wherever.  It is a very therapeutic thing for me to do.  I have found the most unique places and have met some pretty interesting people.  I have found towns that are just too quaint and a coffee shop that makes the best cold mocha coffees.  I have driven to some unknowns only to find another way to get to Denver.  I have driven by or stopped  by old abandoned buildings.  I have watched buffalo graze and run in the plains.  These are the things I have the opportunity to see and enjoy.  Sometimes I am alone, and other times I am accompanied by my son or friends.  I am so ever grateful to experience the simplicity of life.  So ever grateful . . . . Amen. 

Tracy Chapman, "Fast Car"

 

 

Touched so gently

I have been listening to Pink's song, "Glitter in the Air."  I have posted this song and video before, but I have been playing this song quite a bit lately, especially, when I am out for my drives.  The replay button is starting to show some wear and tear.  Anyhow.  There is a line in this song that goes, "have you ever been, touched so gently, you had to cry."  I remember a moment like that.  I was with Mr. Stone; we were holding each other and kissing.  There was a point in that kiss where I felt one with him, as if nothing else in the room was in existence, not even the Christmas music playing in the background.  I do reminisce about Mr. Stone every once in awhile.  It was a somewhat rough day today, and listening to this song did not help matters more.  I am doing well, but I have to admit that I do think about Mr. Stone, we did have a lot of fun!  I miss his energy and how I felt when I was with him.  It was nice.  So, now that I have shared this moment in time with you,  I just might buy a bottle of glitter and experience how that feels.  You know, "Throw a fist full of glitter in the air."

Pink, "Glitter in the Air"

 

 

A little LaMontagne

It is almost 10 pm, and I am getting to bed early.  I start my new job tomorrow.  I am so excited and a little nervous, but I know everything will be okay.  God opened the doors to this job, so I know it will be just fine!  I made hamburgers for dinner tonight, and had a little Sangria.  I also listened to Ray LaMontagne; I love his voice.  It was good to relax today, that is after I cleaned the bathroom, put on a latch and hook in the bathroom, fed the dogs, fish and ourselves.  Yeah, real relaxing. . . but I am able to just sit and do this short entry.  I am also listening to the air ducts blow warm air into our apartment.  I was thanking the Lord for his provision!!  He has never left me hanging and He always comes through on our needs, not wants, but what we really need.  I know I always say I am grateful, and I am, always!!  It has been a rough fourteen years, and God has been faithful!   So, before I go to bed, I want to thank the Lord for His love!

 

Ray LaMontagne, "I will hold you in my arms"

 

 

Breckenridge, CO

Several weeks ago, a couple of my friends and my son drove out to Breckenridge, CO.  Great day with some fantastic people whom I have grown to love and have become family.  The drive to Breckenridge was a little icy, but my friend David is a pro.  It was great to just get out of Colorado Springs, if only for the day.  We ate bologna and tuna fish sandwiches, Breckenridge can be a bit expensive.  We walked around town and stopped in some very trendy shops.  My son found a pair of cowboy boots, yeah, over $300.00.  No way!!   My friends G and David tried out some funky clothes and I found a great pair of boots myself, augh, the price, the price!  ha  The drive back was just as fun.  We were tired, but we had a great time.  These are great memories of time spent with phenomenal people.  Grateful!  Very Grateful!

  

Yes, David was Dorf.  His legs were in two feet of snow.

 

Great hat, Nathaniel!

Yes, G you look Gorgeous! 

The Motley Crew

 

 

Nathaniel always has to get that one shot.

  He is a very good photographer.

 

Yes, there is a "South Park, Colorado"



 

Yeah, yeah . . . .

 

Yep, that sign says it all.  Kidding G.

 

Though, we are making plans for our next day getaway.

  Aspen sounds pretty good for the Spring.



 



Home, home, home

It is still snowing outside, and I am a little chilled in my apartment.  My son and I were talking about our house today and how beautiful it looked in the snow.  I do not ache for my house as much, and I know my son has stated that he is still getting used to living in an apartment.  Personally, I pushed to settle into our apartment and make it a home as soon as I could.  I guess I was getting a little nostalgic in reference to our house, so what is new.  Anyways, it is getting late and I am getting tired.  I have a lot to do tomorrow.  I hope you had a wonderful weekend and Good night.

 

Ingrid Michaelson, "Are we there Yet"

 

 



Another Valentine's Day

Okay, it is Valentine's Day!  It is not a national holiday, but boy were the men out in droves today.  They were busy buying the flowers in Safeway and cards at Walgreen's, it was cute to watch. Chocolate and flowers, nice to receive, but you know I do buy my own.  At least for the time being.  I am not putting this day of lovers down, I get to buy the chocolate and flowers at 50% off the next day.  So, no issues.  Really.  Seriously.  Okay, I am not convincing myself or anyone else.  I have become used to being on my own.  Hey, I will be out with friends on Valentine's Day, who by the way are not dating either.  Well, we are going out for lunch and then to IKEA.  Yeah, my kind of Valentine's Day.  I wonder how many people will be in IKEA?!  Well, anyways.  I wish those who are in a couple, or just starting to become a couple, or not sure they are ever going to be a couple.  Anyways . . . .                                  Happy Valentine's Day!  

 

Ingrid Michaelson, "Girls Chase Boys"

 

 



The Way It Is Going To Be

I don't know what it is about meeting someone, but I did join one of THOSE dating websites.  Recently I had a man contact me.  He was 55 years old, has grown children who live in two different sates, and he moved to Colorado from Texas 20 months ago.  He is intelligent, not bad looking, employed and divorced 2x.  I really was not attracted to him, but he was pursuing diligently, and I thought alright, I'll give it a shot.  We ended up talking on the phone and "NOTHING," absolutely "NOTHING."  He was very nice, but I just didn't feel it, and I had to let him know that I was not interested.  The thing is, he never asked me anything about who I was.  I asked him a barrage of questions about himself.  Yikes!  If there is someone who I am not attracted to, I am not faking it! I am not desperate!! Lonely, yes, but not desperate!! I do not want to be in a relationship where there is no compatibility or attraction. There has to be a connection.  If it is not there I do not want to force it.  Unfortunately, some people will settle and be miserable because they do not want to feel the loneliness.  Who does?!  But better alone than in bad company.  I like who I am and it took me a long time to see what a fantastic heart and spirit I have.  It was almost destroyed by the very man who vowed to cherish and protect me.  If God has a man for me, then that man is looking for me right now.  I will continue to listen to the alignment in my spirit to hold out for the very man who will love, cherish, protect and adore me, becasue I know I can give all those things in return.  And that is just the way it is going to be!

 

 

Not a dumb girl

I was reading some of my email entries with Mr. Stone.  I still have the communications between us, and, yes it is process, but I will eventually delete them.  I don't read them as much and try not to read between the lines. Though, I never thought of myself as a dumb girl.  I always felt I had some things in perspective, like my reliance on the Lord, my smarts and wisdom; I am not tough, but I am strong.  Unfortunately, all this went out the window when I met Mr. Stone.  I cannot believe I am still reeling from all that insanity. I realized that I felt the same as Diane Keaton's character in the movie, "Something's Gotta Give."  This feeling of an intense connection that I believe is extremely rare, (God, I hope not!)  Come to think of it, I don't believe I felt that way about my ex, sad but possibly true.  I am grateful for knowing how it feels to connect with someone in an intense way, not perfect, but a strong attraction none the less.  Unfortunately, that would have been all we had, reality would have set in.  It wasn't a crush; it was definitely more.  I guess this is the merry-go-round of dating.  It can be fun, but I think I need to keep my heart guarded juuuuusssssst a teeeeeeeeny bit more.  :) 

 

I-25 Overpass

My son and I took our dogs for a walk to Monument Park, near downtown Colorado Springs on 1/26/15.  I have been wanting to go over an overpass near the park.  So, I brought my handy dandy camera and walked up to an awesome experience.  I am not a fan of bridges, but I am trying to get over these ridiculous fears.  I had noticed this overpass while commuting to wherever, and would see bike riders, runners and walkers take this overpass everyday. Well, today was the day to walk up to the overpass and it was fun, and I believe I took some half decent shots.  My dogs were not too happy, but they were okay after we took them for their walk.  I enjoy days like this.  It helps me stay in perspective of enjoying the little basic things of life.  I have always hated the fast pace, and I believe I always will.  I know I am not Margaret Bourke-White, I love her work.  The woman knew no fear and took some phenomenal photos, though I have no interest on sitting on a gargoyle to get my shot. I will just stand on the overpass and snap safely. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I loved the thunderous sounds of the cars

 passing under the bridge.  I am glad I did this walk.