Not a dumb girl

I was reading some of my email entries with Mr. Stone.  I still have the communications between us, and, yes it is process, but I will eventually delete them.  I don't read them as much and try not to read between the lines. Though, I never thought of myself as a dumb girl.  I always felt I had some things in perspective, like my reliance on the Lord, my smarts and wisdom; I am not tough, but I am strong.  Unfortunately, all this went out the window when I met Mr. Stone.  I cannot believe I am still reeling from all that insanity. I realized that I felt the same as Diane Keaton's character in the movie, "Something's Gotta Give."  This feeling of an intense connection that I believe is extremely rare, (God, I hope not!)  Come to think of it, I don't believe I felt that way about my ex, sad but possibly true.  I am grateful for knowing how it feels to connect with someone in an intense way, not perfect, but a strong attraction none the less.  Unfortunately, that would have been all we had, reality would have set in.  It wasn't a crush; it was definitely more.  I guess this is the merry-go-round of dating.  It can be fun, but I think I need to keep my heart guarded juuuuusssssst a teeeeeeeeny bit more.  :)